“I’m not bad. I’m just….drawn that way.”<\/figcaption><\/figure>\nNot Jessica Rabbit, you understand. I\u2019ve never poured myself into a ball gown. Poured people out of them, but that\u2019s a different thing altogether. (\u201cThat\u2019s a different thing.\u201d Thank-you.)<\/p>\n
But that thing, the longing forever for the right to stay. I know that feeling. It has nothing to do with mortgages or arrears or where you live or passports or visas. People like us now, we do so many different things. You can call it a portfolio career if it helps. I\u2019ve cooked crepes, shot things, explained things, found things, made things, written things and yes, I crave a form that binds, a certainty, a constancy. And at the same time I avoid it as if it was contagion incarnate, as if it burned my eyes.<\/p>\n
I should never have found this poem. I should never have found this poem again. But it didn\u2019t change my life. It just articulated some of it.<\/p>\n
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